Chapter 387: Uncontrollable Feelings (3)

A sick person?

Was he referring to his bipolar disorder?

When it acted up, it was really scary and overwhelming.

But whether she wanted him or not, there was no direct link on whether he was sick or not.

The main reason she wanted to draw the line was because she was deceived and hurt by him.

Didn’t he already have Xue’er?

Why was he coming back to her now? It made no sense at all.

She did not want to be a pet that was under his beck and call, and she did not want to be affected by him anymore.

If they continued to spend more time together, the feelings in her heart might one day change from liking him to loving him.

And if she were to fall in love with him, those cruel and heartless words would make her suffer even more.

“Mu Sihan, if you’re sick, you should get treatment. Now that Xue’er is back, she’s more than willing to stay by your side. Don’t be so greedy, wanting more when you haven’t even finished your share.”

Mu Sihan did not dare to tell her about his personality disorder. He couldn’t bear for her to her to look at him strangely or fearfully.

Even he himself could not accept the fact that he would split into his brother, Ye Qing, when he had a fever. How could he expect that she would accept him?

People with mental illness were usually extremely sensitive and unwilling to admit their illness to the outside world. Even Mu Sihan, who was usually arrogant, did not want to admit that he was a person with a split personality deep inside his heart.

“I’ll repeat one last time what I said in the mall the other day. Mu Sihan, we’re over. Please don’t look for me anymore.”

The elevator went back to the sixth floor. Nan Zhi did not want to keep entangling with him and prepared to take the stairs after she got out of the elevator.

He did not stop her when she walked past him. But his tall body shook a little.

Nan Zhi saw his pale face with a trace of pain flashing past and there was a slight pain in her heart.

But she did not stop and quickened her pace.

She would not let her heart waver.

When she reached the emergency exit and was about to pull the door open, a pair of long slender arms wrapped around her from behind. Before she could respond, she was embraced by the man.

The tears she had been holding back almost fell when she felt her back press against his broad chest.

She really could not understand him.

Why was he doing this to her?

“Kitten, I don’t agree for us to break up,” he rasped, burying his face into her hair. When he heard that she wanted to end things between them, he panicked, his handsome face becoming even paler, but there was an aggressiveness to it.

Nan Zhi looked at the hands that were holding her tightly and she tried to break away, but although he was still recovering from his injury, his strength was still much stronger than hers.

“Mu Sihan, you’re the most shameless person I’ve ever met!”

How could he be so confident when he was having a foot in both camps?

Mu Sihan’s voice was so hoarse it sounded like it came from the bottom of a valley. “Xue’er is my adoptive father’s daughter. I regard her as my elder sister. I have never kissed her or slept with her. You’re the only woman I have. You are my one and only.”

He knew that he was seriously ill. He knew he shouldn’t fall in love, knew he couldn’t get married and no one knew more than him that he did not deserve to have a normal family. But he was selfish and did not want to let her go.

He couldn’t let her go.

He longed for this warmth, the warmth she brought with her that was brighter than the sun.

If one day his illness was cured, he couldn’t bear to see her with another man.

And because of that, he couldn’t hold back his selfishness.

“I won’t be normal when I’m having a fever. Those days when I have a fever, I won’t remember what happens. Kitten, there are 365 days in a year and all of those days, I’m myself. Next time if I have a fever, stay away from me. Only come back after a few days, then I’ll be me again. I’ll still be me.”

Nan Zhi furrowed her brows and did not understand what he was talking about.

Was there anything so strange in the world? Forgetting what he had done when he had a fever? He really was going to extraordinary lengths to make excuses for the scumbag he had been.

Nan Zhi was a little angry as she unable to break his hold on her. She lowered her head and bit hard on the back of his hand.